it will rain

turns out that the dry spell is here to stay. just when i was hoping for some rain, or at least a drizzle, the powers that be decided that it shouldn't happen. this dry spell has been going on for far too long. when will it all end? or will it ever end?
am i to live continuously suffering the long heat of summer?
or will i finally get to taste the sweet rain on my tongue?

injection or rejection, they used to ask. i used to fear both. now, i guess i shall make peace with both. sometimes, things are just not meant to be. just like how i decided that one seed shouldn't bloom, another tree will also decide not to blow it seeds my way.

come to think of it, i shouldn't be unhappy. yes. age is slowly catching up on me. in fact, i am slowly starting to become a joke myself. but at least, i should be proud of who i am. but then, is that the case?

why is it that hard to believe that i am introverted? is it that hard to see from my personality? i am also socially awkward. and i guess that is not helping for whatever that i want to achieve.

two heartbreaks in 3 days. i can manage that. i hope.

i just wish that it will rain

wtf (s)

just when i thought that i've managed to get you out of my life, you tend to emerge from the most unexpected places. seriously. wtf! wtf! i am not supposed to see you there. wtf!
and i hate it even more because you gave me butterflies in my tummy. seriously, wtf. urgh..