Closure

Disclaimer: This post is highly emotive and deep. In you find such issues disturbing, and confusing, I strongly advice you to stop reading and hop on to another blog.

Whew..finally, i've attain my closure. or at least what i think is the start of the end. although i had long embarked on the end, there was still a lingering feeling. it's the unseeing pain, the hurt and all..

but i think i finally closed that chapter last night. in a way, it's a very stupid ending. we may still be friends, and i shall continue to pray for your happiness, i guess this is better for both of us, and probably to all others involved indirectly.

i know it was a simple end. we had the last movie, the last dinner.. and now the parting gift. sounds silly, but i think it's proper now. at least i know that there's part of me that have let go.

essentially, i guess i don't blame you for anything. in fact, i blame no one for causing all this except myself. for i have willingly stepped into the fire, even though i have warned others against it, and being warned. i have to admit, i'm burnt.. but at least, i am still alive.

lastly, i think i should thank you for bringing back the person in me. for bringing back the arrogance and coldness that have eluded me in the past few months.

again, i wish you luck.

and i shall continue searching for my inner peace (i think i found it, considering that i had sound sleep last night).

ciao
ben