argh!!! celine's new single is currently on air now. i know. it's been years since the last album was produced, and i can hardly wait for this one. watched the video clip from youtube. it was good, but somehow, the plot doesn't relate. i just can't wait to get my hands on the album. anyway, while i was browsing on youtube, i found another song of hers which i didn't know have an mv. i'm talking about je t'aime encore. it's the french version though. i love that song. i love that song so much that it tops my playlist (ok, maybe not top, but it's there).
anyway, while i was on youtube, i also manage to find a few other songs worthy of a place in this blog. it may be old, but it brings back all the memories. (private moment: tears actually welled my eyes while i was watching the ending scene from 'the butterfly lovers' just now)

exams are round the corner. as a matter of fact, it's only 4 days away from my first paper. somehow, i don't feel that anxious. it's health psychology, so hopefully i'll manage to score the paper. i've been so engaged with my final year project that i kinda forgotten about my other responsibilities like my studies...gosh, this project is really taking a toll on me.

i finally found the cure of almost all form of depression.....McDonald's Cornetto McFlurry.. ok, i may be exaggerating there, but the McFlurry is a must have. i had both early this morning (at 1 a.m.), and they were heavenly. my gosh, the chocolate chips, peanuts, strawberry chunks. apparently, all my work out went down the drain with the double dose of dessert...but it was worth it. superb

here's another restaurant worthy of mention: sri ananda bhawan, in tanjung bungah. well, it's my friday hang-out place now. the food there is really delicious. patrons should try the vadai, naan and tandoori set. it's really nice. apart from the food, the ambience there is really nice too. it's not like any other north indian restaurant, this place rocks (literally and figuratively). guys, check it out if u have the time. the only downside, they closes at 12.30 a.m., so you can't linger there long..

starbucks @ egate

location: starbucks, egate
weather: after rain chills
time: 23.40

am hanging out again at starbucks. yes, i know. the 'pay-a-bomb-for-coffee-that-u-can-get-from-coffee-shop' outlet. but what the heck, i'm a starbucks convert. besides, i do give in to commercialism. call me a trend-drifter..i drift where the trend is. if it's trendy, then i'll be there. i use to have ppl telling me that they wouldn't follow, wouldn't give in etc. i thought so too...then, boy, was i wrong. i finally woke up from that sickening dream of doing the impossible. i realised that 'if u can't beat them, join them'.

do you believe in dreams?? i don't know. sometimes, i would want to believe in them. sometimes, they are best left forgotten. and on dreams, many ppl have devised ways to define them. there's the freudian and jung theory, the bibilical theory, the gypsys, greeks etc.. so, make your pick. oh, and if u ever dream of snakes....it means repressed sexual desires..haha.

anyway, am gonna leave now as i've got my weekly fix of starbucks
ciao

p.s. i have one to many snakes in my dream. does this mean that my animal is awaken inside??

addiction

britney, lindsay.....rehab
bree.......alcohol addiction
princess......love/sex addict
me.......chocolate addict!!

yes folks, i am addicted to chocolate. more precisely, kit kats. i have this weird affection for kit kat. for whatsoever reasons, i do not know why. however, kit kat is not only my sin. i would gladly take in cadbury and whatever nots...as long as they are chocolate. belgian, dark, white, milk....i love them all. i must say, white chocolate has a distinct lure to it. it's not exactly 100% chocolate. but the taste of white chocolate...omm..heavenly.

i think i need help. i keep on reminding myself that chocolates are bad for me. they won't do me any good, especially when i am on my quest to lose weight. somehow, i just can't break free from the addiction. it is especially helpful when i am depressed. somehow, the endorphines in the chocolate help me put my life in perspective and make me 'high'. anyway, i think the reason for my previous post was due to the high amount of cadbury in my blood.

speaking of life in perspective, i also suffer from jekyll and hyde syndrome. i think i had it for a long time, but somehow it's more pronounced lately. maybe it's due to the sudden change in lifestyle and habits. getting to know different people from different walks of life also unleashed the inner beast in me. don't get me wrong. this beast won't do harm...however, this beast lives a life in la la land. it dreams to catwalk down the runway, design the next dkny and heck, even become a yoga/jam/balance trainer. maybe i've been letting loose for far too long. can somebody offer a solution to aid me in suppressing hyde................argh

ok, enough for the nite. ciao

p.s. rhinoplasty is a MUST for me

another day

argh!!! something is really wrong with me today. i'm feeling very very 'hiao'. in fact, i think the word should be sexually active. i seriously do not know why. it feels like i need to have someone next to me, cuddled together, and enjoying the moment...i need someone..

care to apply? post me ur resume and i'll call u up for an 'interview'. haha. (ok, that's the mr hyde in me talking).

ciao, hiao

random posting

topic 1: poor man wants commitment, rich man hates commitment, rich man who wants commitment is gay.

topic 2: women are getting skinny for women, not men.

listed above are two topics that i shared with some friends a few days ago. i know it may sound sexist and everything, but don't you agree with me? this is reality. this is what's going on in the world today. there's no more prince charming riding to rescue a d-i-d anymore.. wake up and face the world.

anyway, i really hope u guys love the songs that i posted on the sidebar. some are quite hard to come by, and some just represent what i'm thinking/feeling at the moment.

viva le tauro

ciao

Angkasawan

in less than 24 hours, a guy from Malaysia will leave the world. literally.
location: Baikonur, Russia.
destination: International Space Station (ISS)
mode: the Soyuz

it may seem like just another achievement for Malaysia in it's race for progress. but let me remind you, we'll be the fourth country in the world to send a man into space (Russia, USA, and China), the first from the south-east asia (even before singapore), and sending the first Muslim to space (especially during the month of Ramadan). he'll be spending 9 days aboard the ISS, conducting biological experiments benefiting mankind.

initially, critics were laughing at our effort to send a malaysian into space. jokes were made, including references to making roti canai and teh tarik in space. however, they do not realise how historic this moment is to all malaysians. 50 years after the birth of our nation, we manage to venture into space. besides, it's 50 years since the first aircraft 'Sputnik' left Russia and went into space (with the dog). imagine that. isn't this the moment of pride and glory that we should all treasure. someday, we'll look into the sky above us and remember that a fellow malaysian did conquer that frontier.

space had long facinated my head. when i was young, i used to look up to the night sky and wonder what's beyond earth. i did read a lot about space and the such. not too much on the technical part, but on histories, myths, legends and information about space. i used to look at the starchart and identify the night sky. when i first saw Pleidas in Perth, i was jumping for joy. never have i spotted pleidas from malaysia. we can see orion, the crux, big dipper and others, but i've never seen pleidas from here....so, imagine my joy.

anyway, enough of me, as this post is dedicated to the man that will carry the malaysian name to space. whether it's dr sheik or dr. faiz, i wish u all the best. dreams and hopes of 22million malaysians rest on your shoulder. so, be well, good luck, and land at the ISS with pride.

blessed be

random postings

haha, cain and abel. why didn't i think about that. hmm.....

gosh, are mood swings politically correct? is it truly a psychotic disorder? or is it hormonal imbalance. someone please tell me. i was suffering from a horrible bout of mood swing this whole day. i was chirpy in the morning, depressed in the afternoon, sad in the evening, and finally lusty and depressed at night. can it really happen? i've studied about mood disorders, but i am certainly not manic, nor bipolar....

actually, i preferred to think that maybe i am an empath, i.e. someone who can feel other people's feelings. i know that only exists in storied and folklore, but surely, the empath would suffer a lot. i seriously can't go through all the emotions in the world. they are too taxing. i can't even sort my heart out right, what's more, the world.

speaking of empaths...i actually miss 'charmed'. yes, i grew up with the series. there are 3 hot chicks, kicking demon ass and saving the world..a little childish, i know. well, it was perfect initially. good storyline and very faithful to the wiccan art. however, things went downhill after season 5...gosh, i miss it. especially rose mcgowan. she's hot...really love porcelain red heads. they are so beautiful..rose mcgowan, marcia cross, nicole kidman....ha

went for chuck and larry last night. it wasn't that good, just passable. i must say, that movie got me thinking of some personal issues..well, i'll share that next time

ciao

What's become of our society

case 1: a lady was snatched off her golden necklace in front of my house on wednesday morning. it was 8.30 and a thieve was so bold to snatch her, and they were both on motorcycles.
case 2: a broken pvc pipe, 2 bronze urns, a metal stand and a few pairs of slippers and articles of clothes were stolen from my house. some may be worth something, some may worth peanuts.
case 3: student's loitering at the playground when they should be in school. as if playing truant was not enough, some were smoking even though they are underaged

here are 3 case examples of what our society have become today. i don't have to look far. i don't have to scan the newspapers or sit in front of the telly. all i had to do was to look out my front door. these cases may seem all, or nothing. although we are gripped with sensational stories such as the recent 'Nurin' case, or the 'Shearway' case, we are also blind to the downfall of society around us.

i attended the freedom film festival two weeks ago. my first block was on gangsterism. many people were vocal of their opinions of gangsterism, but none have come out with a proper solution. some even dismissed this as a sub-culture of another society (the movie was based in singapore) and it doesn't happen here. but let me tell you, it does. in fact, it happens right under our noses. but what have we done?

leaders, NGOs and others may have much to say, but have they put it to action? have they try to reform? to teach? or even to educate the society of these social ills?

lets review the 3 cases that i highlighted. the first two cases was motivated by financial gains. but have they ever stopped to think of what will become of the individual that they caused ill? what if the lady were to fall, crash and injure herself ? i lost my aunt to a case of snatch theft. she was snatched, pushed, and knocked her head on the curb by the road. she passed away 3 days later. but until this moment, we still couldn't find the culprit. theft may not cause any physical injury, but think of the inconvenience caused to the family. imagine waking up one morning to pray, just to realise that my urn has gone missing. well...what more can i say

as for the third case, i highlighted it because it is just as important. as they say, bad habits start from young. if people are not educated the right way, they will fail for the rest of their lives. no offence to the majority out there, but these kids that play truant are actually sons of cops living in the neighbourhood. maybe they have this false sense of immunity against the law, making them bold to leave school.

everytime i see them, i think to myself, why am i working my ass of to complete my studies? i do that to secure my future. but look at them, they don't have to be in school, they don't have to study, and yet, they will be given a place in society. universities will open their doors to them. civil departments will gladly welcome them, and like it or not, they will be granted 30% equity in all firms. all this because it's their birth right. wow.

so, what do u think? is that our society? is that what we've become? after 50 years of independace, is that how we should lead our lives? is that what the future have become? where crime and social ills rule the way? what i've highlighted is just the tip of the iceberg. there's more in this society, but what can we do?

it's all up to you. thanks for reading, and ciao

harken' ye, as [Q] speaks

haha, funny title to begin a blog. well, it's the new month already. so here i am, making a fresh new start. i'll try my best to upload my thoughts as often as i could, but don't blame me if u find my blog a mess. i tend to think a lot and i don't think in sequence. i'm a random thinker and will just blog on whatever that crosses my mind.
as it's getting late now, i don't feel like blogging long blogs. besides, this is just the beginning, so there'll be more chances to explore my mind. so, i shall now leave my readers:
'love is a many splendour things', so spread your love to everyone around you. seen or unseen, share your love and you'll find love automatically.
ciao