Post 144

Yes, i am finally lost for a title to put in my blog. not that i don't wanna put, just that i am not sure what to put as my blogs are usually messed up...(reflective of my thoughts)

Firstly, my deepest apologies to Alan cos somehow, he's influenced to write like me (i may sound morbid at times)!! it wasn't my intention to channel my 'emo' feel to others. besides, u ppl are not going through what i am going through.. anyway, i don't have happy preppy words to cheer one up, therefore, i'm sorry.

Just a matter of thought. the political landscape in Malaysia, especially in Penang, has been changing drastically for the past few months. during march 8th, we were actually worried if there's a repetition of may 13th incident. thankfully, malaysians have matured...or have we?? lately, a certain politician have been instigating racial remarks, testing the racial sentiments of the present community, creating discord. if this prolongs, sooner or later, the ghost of may13th will return....and worst still, i'll be the first to be killed, cos i am neither chinese, nor am i a malay..haih.

Am occupying myself with work now. am figuring out budgets, costs, planning and services to keep myself away from hurtful thoughts. should take a cue from the love guru....stop hitting yourself!! stop hitting yourself!! why are u still hitting yourself!!..

speaking of love guru...it's definitely worth a watch, especially when in depression period. it really took my mind of matters, just having 2 hours of laughter and all in the cinema. it started of rather slow, and took a while to tickle the audience, but the love guru was really funny. check out the few other funny parts like justin timberlake singing a celine dion song...and the faux celine dion.. gosh, this movie is a must watch for celine dion fans.. hahaha

am supposed to teach bodybalance this coming sunday. was initially excited, but somehow, as i was lying down to sleep last night, i thought i should just bail out of it and hand it over to joa. probably she could be a better instructor than me, and she needs all the practise too, considering that she should be getting a class anytime soon....

now, i think i should be accustomed to playing second fiddle, being the ugly duckling, being alone, and returning as the ice queen.. i guess this is what i am..hahaha

ok, enough for this random post.

GO WATCH LOVE GURU!!!

ciao
Ben