3am,1107

it's been a while since i last posted anything here. not that i have abandoned the blog, but i guess i was running dry, and sometimes, i just don't feel like writing anything here at all. I guess tonight's a little different, as i am watching the third place play-off for the fifa world cup. am rooting for germany, but their performance in the last match (and this match) has been quite dismal.

watching footie, you say. so not me. but yea, every once in four years, I will gather some energy to join in the fun and watch the world cup. it is quite intesting to watch the teams play, and how they perform, as a team, and as a individual. it's not easy to bring together 11 people from different clubs, put them together, and expect them to fight as one. probably can be reflected on life too..but i guess when the banner is strong enough, the spirit will be then.

a little thing about the game this time around. isn't it a little funny that an octopus is also sharing so much limelight? haha. yup. octopus paul. although i did post up my intention to fry it, i maintain that the octopus is innocent, and doesn't determine the outcome of the game. i guess it was a convenient excuse, especially when we deal with losses. again, same can be seen for other normal events of our lives. we will tend to seek a convinient scapegoat to make our mistakes and losses more bearable.

the few weeks have been pretty hectic, and i expect the same to happen for the next four months. working for two organizations is pretty hard to juggle with, and will use more of my time as compared to normal. but i guess i cannot complaint. i shall only make a change when some things are in place. i can't wait, and yet i am not prepared.

had a short period to reflect on my jeykell and hyde traits again this afternoon, right after emceeing for the book launch of The Sara Saga and Hail,Penang!. i know i am comfortable appearing on stage, and can speak pretty well. but there is another part of me that questions my comfort of stepping into the limelight. i guess this question will never be answered.

enough of blabbering for a while. will continue to fill my life with more exciting things, and learn to enjoy the moment. after all, i continue to learn, to live and let die.