why, CNY 2011

what does it take for me to move along. why is it that you have to be there when i am least expecting, ruining my night in an instant. why is it that i can see you, but u can never see me? why is it that you can be so happy, while i stuck here now with my heart on my sleeve? and why can't you be more direct, and give me an indication, instead of messing me up with all these stupid signs. i have had enough. and yet, why can't i let go of you