no more tears..

how apt a title. this is the famous barbara streisand and donna summer's disco song back in the 80's. it's also one of the songs from body jam 43.. ah..how time flies. body jam 45 is coming up.. with techniques such as the butterfly twist and all..
after seeing all these.. i think i may want to quit jam.
in fact, the thought of giving up my gym membership surfaced quite often. as you may have read from the previous post, i've let myself down completely. i don't think i know how to survive. i have no more tears to shed for this episode..but i can't put the ghost of it behind me too.
i was told to grin and bear..i want to...but is it possible for me?? i did walk into the gym yesterday, but i just don't have the heart to be there anymore. in fact, i'm now seated here blogging instead of pumping up the adrenaline..haih.
i guess i'm lost in this world of achievers..
i should fade away....
ciao