diwali weekend

It's the second day back in the office after a long weekend. quite hectic, as certain plans and deals crop up..

anyway, friday's dinner was beautiful.. it was at the view, equatorial hotel, and the food is simply delicious. i had quite a number of fresh oysters, had some caviar, pate, and last but not least, the best maincourse: the cod fish.
it was so fresh and so beautifully cooked. but i guess the most beautiful part is that i get to eat all those for free..hehe.

had my hair cropped on saturday (actually spent about 4 hours in the salon)..now, it's shorter at the sides, but still long at the front..hehe. something different, and have generated quite a number of praises.. the weirdest?? i'm radiating, due to the new haircut..hehe

watched hsm3 on saturday nite.. unplanned. actually went for a chinese opera, however, was so hungry that i couldn't finish the opera and went off after they have finished singing all the chinese oldies. as for hsm3, was ok. preferred mamma mia (i'm biased). overload of zac efron again..really love sharpay evans..hehe.
best part?? there was this whole bunch of teenage blokes behind me cheering and even singing to the movie...gosh (and i thought they have grown out of hsm..) was also surprised that my company actually watched this kind of movies...hmm.

monday was diwali...nothing special except that i was awaken by loud explosions of firecrakers. honestly, these ppl have no consideration for others who love to have their beauty sleep. come on, the firecrakers lasted until about 2 and started as early as 7.30 in the morning!!

had diwali lunch at lav's place.. food was just passable. however, really took her mum a long time to prepare everything...probably it was also due to the fact that i had no appetite for anything in the afternoon (suffered from colic).

dinner was just plain silly, as i actually had 2 bowls of dessert..hmm. talk bout me having sweet teeth. guess i better lower my sugar intake....hehe

am anticipating halloween this friday..am finally gonna go for a party at TGI, and this time, with deathly make-up (hopefully). am trying to get eyeliner and all from alexandra..hehe. have my wardrobe planned out (actually, it was just staring me at the face)...

ok, signing off now, as i am getting ready to leave work and go for another movie (butterfly lovers)..

ciao
ben

emotional spur

there i was, having a happy friday...nice lunch, nice atmosphere..
and when i got back to office, nice time sharing music and lyrics with my collegue..
when suddenly, i just saw the message...and the song was spot on.. it was leona lewis's better in time..
the emotional rush just came and i was about to burst into tears.. although i have promised myself not to shed a tear...not for this.. i promised myself a lot of things.. but i wonder..will it ever stay??

here's Better in Time...

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time


Says what i have in me....

1 year anniversary

i'd just realised that it's been 1 year since i moved over here to blogspot.
was previously using xanga to host my thoughts and all..
anyway, many things have changed in this one year... good and bad
thank you to all readers.

anyway, just came back from the inaugural professoral lecture from one of my professors from uni. it was amazing being there, attending his lecture. and even more amazed at myself for the change in look in uni grounds. previously, i sported the t-shirt and jeans look, and lecturers couldn't be bothered much.. but now, the corporate look really drew all the attention...woo hoo

just got my hands on the galaxie mag, and saw the movie that i want to watch next.. twilight.. yup, it's the vampire romance story from stephanie myer. it's kinda like chick-lit, but reading the book was splendid.. now, can't wait for the movie..

ok,buzzing off now

ciao
ben

work??

I guess the most lovely thing at work is when both ur head and boss is not around, and all events and paper work have been organised.. however, i'm sick of this feeling already.. it's been 3 days already, and all i am doing is surfing the net and eating.. during uni years, those 2 seemed like luxury... now, it's just dreadful.

picked myself up from the guts of depression and from hell. am now going back to the gym, albeit less conversation.. and am finding the passion to teach again. however, am not sure if this could last long....

ok,enough for now, guess i better to learn up my choreo for tonight's lesson.

wish me luck

ciao
ben

Law....Murphy's Law

Remember how i have been talking about Murphy's law in the past few posts...well, i guess this is no exception, especially during the event held yesterday. to begin with, it was a joint event of international chef's day and world children's day.. my organisation was the main organiser for the world children's day.. everything was supposed to turn out right...but it didn't..

Initially, i was supposed to be only in charge of the potato printing session.. but eventually, i had to leave to take over the floor, be the stage manager, and worse... have to become the Master of Ceremony for the concert. OK, it wasn't any formal concert, and is held at the amphitheater... but i was only wearing jeans and a black tank top.. thank goodness i had my padini hoodie..but still, i was drenched in sweat by the time i took the stage to host the event.. haih.

However, looking back, i don't think i am discouraged by what happened. although i wasn't prepared and informed that i have to become the MC, i guess i managed to play it well by ear. got the concert moving even without a prepared speech text... and thankfully not embarrass myself in front of the Chief minister and his entourage. last but not least, am also glad that ppl actually like my voice and my command of the language. i did falter at times, but i guess it wasn't that apparent [had an american guy coming up to me to congratulate me on my skills]. i guess that was the best satisfaction...ah..

Murphy's law also affected me on friday... haha..when i had to teach balance. I was actually early, as i managed to change in the office (about 4.30), left the office at 5 sharp, but still barely made it into the gym by 5.20 (distance between gym and office is about 10 minutes).. silly me, cos i kinda dropped my ipod in the car as i was about to leave the car, and spent another 2 minutes looking for it.. and then there were those horrible drivers who doesn't know how to drive....

moving on, watched disaster movie last friday [with the gals].. so fun to finally catch up on movie with my two besties.. and i dare say, disaster movie was hilarious.. however, am a little freaked out with gremlin-like versions of alvin and the chipmunks.. and boy, that juno baby was freaky.. haha. one thing though.. the protagonist is kinda cute..

am not watching max payne cos was told that it's not nice [boring, in fact]
wanna catch butterfly lovers.....[hopeless romantic]
may catch Quantum of Solace
HSM3....probably, when i am just too bored..haha

random act: skipped gym for the whole week...except to teach balance.. guess the change is kinda drastic, but probably it's for the best...
also..started to change my saturday night programme.. not sure how it may end up.. again, it's probably for the best.

oh, speaking of saturday...went speed hiking up the hills. went up via botanical gardens and took me about 30 to 40 minutes to reach the stop (No 84). it was swift and fast (in fact, i was nearly sprinting). My hiking partner (who used to be better than me in stamina) actually had to stop for some while, complaining that i have developed 'yoga lungs' and was basically sprinting up the hill... haha. if only. in fact, i felt kinda slow, and shouldn't have stopped to wait for him.

well, it was a pleasant hike as the skies were lovely. it's been raining for the past few days and it really drains the mood.. the best part was that we even saw a huge (about 2m) long rat snake.. it was a little funny at first that ppl were actually afraid of it and was waiting for the snake to pass, but me, being a zoologist, could just identify the snake and walked pass it nonchalantly.. haha..
that's the beauty of being a zoologist..

ok, i guess i should stop now, as the post is getting longer and longer.

oh, by any means, i am in a really good mood today (probably it's from the coffee mexican bun from tesco).. haha

ciao
je t'aime
ben

Tuesday, tuesday

ello ppl... don't worry, as i am not becoming a blog freak. just thought that i could use this to channel away some of my frustrations. haha.

anyway, it's been barely 24 hours since i last blogged.. and am now feeling the urge to just pen some thoughts.

ok, firstly, just came back from the local govt consultative forum. as usual, i just cannot escape from Murphy's law. this time, i'd forgotten to bring the stationery box. thankfully, it was all prepared and the office is near..

next, i chickened out again.. yes, yet again, i couldn't bring myself to go to the gym on a monday. i stopped right in front of the traffic light leading to island plaza, and turned away. if this persist, i guess i will have to give up my membership soon.

am still resorting to sleep as recovery for me. i guess when i sleep, it helps to silence those hurtful thoughts that plague me. either that or i am just probably stupid to just entertain those thoughts.

reversed queen of cups- page of wands- reversed 10 of cups- the lovers.
so, this was the reading of my tarot cards when i consulted on my love life (or the non-existance of it). the major arcana is supposed to put more pressure compared to the minor arcanas, and i am not certain if the lovers card would mean anything.

probably i've watched too much of 'touched by an angel' when i was small, and am now having the psyche that probably the reason that i am here is to help make a change. and seeing that my job is done, i should move on... but then, i guess i must be a 'fallen angel' too, cos i somehow get stuck recently while helping someone make a change. i guess the person that really needs to change is me.

am wanting a new wardrobe... just for the heck of it.

am going hiking this saturday, and then back home after that. guess that will make 3 weeks of change in my saturday schedule. if this goes on smoothly, i guess i could slowly get rid of the thorn in my heart.

speaking of heart... i think i may be suffering from mild angina pectoralis. it's caught me by surprise, i couldn't breath, it hurts, and sends a sharp pain into my ear. at first, i thought it was stress, but now, i am no longer sure of it..

my sinus is also creating another problem, and has my granny all worked up. she is so concerned and worried that it may be cancer.. haha. anyway, how do i put it to people that i wouldn't want to undergo any type of therapy if i do get diagnosed with cancer. hmm...

ok, enough of crap, back to work (reading today's newspaper for me..haha)

ciao
ben

Monday brief

Worked my ass of over the past week. there were just so many things and events to take care of.
however, all is over and done now. thankfully i managed to tackle Murphy's law with tact. haha.

anyway, did the launch of bodybalance 42 yesterday. it was simply amazing, and the class was packed (exceeded the limit).

a different part of me is starting to surface. the wild child, the diva... and last but not least, the stronger, colder and cruel person.. haha.

am still in the process of learning how to let go, although it hurts so much.

enough said,
ciao

Ben

Born to be Wild....

Hehe..sorry combat boys, but i guess i have to borrow a song title from ur last release to use for my rantings..hehe.

Why the title, you may ask...hmm, i guess every person is born with some primal animal instinct in them waiting to be unleashed.. and mine finally came out of the woodworks last friday nite.

Yup, went clubbing with the boys...and unleashed the beast inside of me..haha. i guess i was sleazy, loose and out-of-control..hehe. but it was pure fun for me. i dare say it's the best clubbing experience that i have had all this while.and i have no regrets for it. can't wait for christmas to unleash the beast again..

and boys, pardon me if i did plant my smooches on u all..haha.

another fun thing (slight damage to the wallet)is shopping.. and guess what, i managed to blow about 400 bucks in about 4 hours..hehe. it was the perfect retail therapy for me as i loved everything that i bought... from soundtracks to apparels to 'beauty products'...haha. i wish i could do that more often, provided that it's sustainable to my wallet...

just a random thought: am really happy with my 'bodybalance' family, that our dicipline for tuition is superb. everyone makes an effort to turn up and present their best for the session, even though it is just only a tuition. now, am just waiting for the launch come this sunday. i get to present 2 tracks (the first time i am presenting for launch)..am so happy!!!

and once again, am happy that i managed to sell my idea for the dress code during the launch. balance is turning colourful...with white tops and pastel fishermen's bottom. haha. am just wondering how to spruce the class up on the launch itself.

another random thought: am becoming the 'professional master of ceremony (MC) again for a recycling convention come this saturday. love my job, but have to stay put until the end of the day..

ok, signing off now as i'm in the midst of preparing my speech text.

ciao
je t'aime
Ben