CNY celebrations

i guess there's probably not much to be said about this chinese new year. it's just like any other ordinary CNY.. the weather is hot, i feel like i'm drowing (and short of breathe) and i think lethargy is starting to set in..

as usual, we had the reunion dinner, and this time, dad is finally free to join us for reunion. then, we waited until it was 12, and headed off to the temple to offer prayers. as for me, i have nothing to pray for except happiness and good blessings to everyone around me.

i guess i can pretty much sum up the new year in a few words like eat, sleep and be merry, which is actually quite bad for my body. i can feel myself getting heavier and heavier by the day... better get rid of all those fat soon!!!

guess that's all i have for now. am not really in the mood to blog.
ciao

About Me

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

-Ripped this from Alan- apparently, it's quite true.. well, i'll let you know what i think in the next post or something.. haha

shopaholics unite

'walking around with load of bags'.. i believe, that would be the greatest satisfaction for any shopaholic. and it was exactly what i felt when i went shopping for my new year clothes. with all the bags, and watching money being converted into apparel, the euphoric feeling is just to great to contain inside. anyway, bought myself quite a number of things.. new levi's, new t-shirts, new workout pants and all.. haha. it was the best feeling in the world.

and i guess it all didn't end there, cos i just ended up paying another huge sum for a pair of shoes.. those boots were irresistable.. and heck! those boots were made for walking.. hahahahahah.

as mentioned in my previous blog, am now on holiday for CNY. but again, the addiction got the better part of me, and am now seated in coffee bean, with my msn and facebook turned on.. haha. anyway, the holidays will do me bad, cos i kinda put on weight (am at 65 now.. bad number).. must try to reduce to less than 60. haha

anyway, gtg now. am gonna catch yet another movie!! oh, btw, inkheart is really nice! it was really what i have in mind, when story books come to life. in fact, it's like a metaphore to what i always experience, when i pick up a good book..
up next: bride wars..haha

ok, really have to go.
ciao

Legs..

Here's one thing i've learn from yesterday's bodyjam session : Don't stand in front of the photographer, especially when he's bending down to take a shoot..

heck, those are my legs. and now, they're publicly being displayed on the internet and on facebook.. and it kinda generated hell lots of comments, regarding my legs.. now, i do wonder how am i gonna walk the earth again.

anyway, i think i'm addicted to another sinful item : chatting on msn. i seem to be using msn all the time, chatting and chatting and chatting... but actually, i'm the last person who would want to strike up a conversation in the first place.. so, why am i such a 'warm' person online??
heck, i wonder if i would suffer from withdrawal syndrome if i ever get off from msn.
oh, btw, i'm also deeply addicted to facebook. previously, i couldn't be bothered with it.. now, i can't live without it...yikes

am starting my Chinese New Year holiday in 3 hours time.. haha. just can't wait for this working day to end, and i'll be on leave until the 1st of february. haha. honestly, i really really love the season, as i get to enjoy myself, and immerse myself in the rich traditions and culture of the chinese..

and since i'll be away for quite a number of days, i guess this will be my last post for a while.. haha

ok guys,'Gong Xi Fa Cai' to all..

je t'aime
ben

Manic Monday

Just when you think that Bananarama's song is not relevant to your life... think again!! I had one of the worst start for the day, and possibly for the week..
Imagine this.. when i was on my way leaving my apartments, i accidentally knocked down an old lady with my car.. damn it.. the road was clear, i was inching out.. next thing i know, old lady comes into view of my windscreen, and i have to pull the emergency break. thank goodness it was a minor fall (major shock).. when i went out to help her up, that ungrateful lady was scolding me.... argh, can't they be forgiving and just say, it's ok?? i went up to her, apologised, and helped her across the street... and yet!! argh.

After 5 minutes of the fiasco, ended up caught in a silly congestion. it actually took me more that 20 minutes to reach my office (and i took short cuts).. it was so bad (coupled with the rush of emotion of knocking down a lady) that i became a total wreck when i reached the office.

was supposed to give comments on my proposal in a meeting just now, but instead, just ended up becoming a wallflower in the meeting.. seriously..but thankfully, managed to save on lunch, as boss paid for lunch (in mizi bistro) after the meeting..haha. i guess the other good thing was that i only returned to office after 2.30, and was educated on economics 101.. haha. seriously, i can't imagine myself becoming an economist, telling people about GDP, GMP etc..

Am wanting to watch Australia (Nicole Kidman, Hugh Jackman) on saturday nite, but didn't manage to make it. will probably catch it on thursday, after gym (provided the person that i invited respond to it!!!) i enjoyed the titanic, and i see no problem watching another 3 hour movie

Preparations for CNY is almost done.. decors are up, lightings are up, and finished my baking agenda. made 3 variety of cookies (am contemplating on the fourth), and will possibly bake cakes closer to the new year.. haha. i just love being in the kitchen.. sadly, i'm stuck in the office from 8 to 5 daily..

I guess i shall just give up the idea of shopping for CNY, as i couldn't seem to get myself proper apparels. either that, or i am just not in the mood to shop for anything, or there's just nothing that i want anymore.. haih.

enough of my rantings..
ciao
Ben

horoscope

TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous


- Can't help but just wanna put that there.. haha-

Post-holiday blues

Probably i'm the only person to suffer from post-holiday blues, even into the second week of work. Somehow or other, i just couldn't pick up the energy, the momentum and the drive to really get back to work. everything in me feels so stagnant.. non-moving. and to think that chinese new year is just round the corner (another break of about 8 days).. am wondering where to get the inspiration to write the concept paper and proposal as assigned by boss (he kinda picked me for the task)..

Saturday was a blast, as i was fired with so much energy that i didn't feel tired, even working from 8.30 to 5, then continued with dinner, movie and hanging out in coffee bean until 1. probably that was the long awaited recharge that i needed.. but sadly, it only lasted for a day.. am so moodless that i'm not even sure if i could conduct class tomorrow night.

Went for an unexpected movie on saturday, with unexpected results. the movie, They Wait, was surprisingly good, for an unknown producer. although the timing for the release of such a movie is rather weird (it's a horror movie), the plot was quite okay. it was developed and fleshed out well, incorporating the customs and cultures of two different world. the only thing is that, WHY animate vampires to look like weird claw-like creatures??

ok, enough for the moment.. the lazy bug is still hanging onto me.. can't seem to get anything done.. haha

until the next post,
just wait!!

ben

p.s. Celine's latest compilation album is worth obtaining, as the extra songs are really really really nice!!

learning

if there is one thing to learn, i think i should learn how to be a better person. not that i need to show this better person to the world, but i have to show this better person to myself. i have to learn how to treat myself better, and take care of myself. i will have to learn how to take care of myself, not letting myself be inflicted with harm and pain. and i will have to learn how to pick myself up and let me be strong again.. i guess, this is the hardest lesson any person should learn..

the second thing which i may have to learn, probably come this year.. is to be less sensitive, and try not to read between lines, emotions etc. i should try to distance myself from human connection (which i was once a pro..). perhaps, this bade well for me in these trying times.

on another issue, am just wondering how often does a person misuses terms of endearment?? sometimes, i just don't feel comfortable when people call me dear or darling, when they don't really mean what they are calling. of course, i will not explode into a fire ball or something, but i wished they come from someone who meant it.

ok, gtg now, as last minute work is piling up, and i need to go back now!

ciao
ben

elephant brains?? probably not

Isn't it funny how Alan mentioned about a tiff about me and him that i can't seem to remember... probably age has caught up with me, drying up my brain cells to the point that i can't even remember such happenings (and mind you, apparently, it was only a few months back). either that, or i've been throwing one too many tantrums that i can't even remember who i am mad with anymore..

speaking of getting mad, i guess there's no better way to end the year than being a cranky, moody sour grape. it was misery, bent on ruining me.. the day was bad to start with (interrupted sleep), then, horrendous nap that zapped my energy.. then, other incidents concerning my dressing.. and finally, spending hours waiting and waiting for things to happen. waiting for people to turn up, waiting for seats, waiting for food...argh.. but i guess i just have to bear with it.. after all, i had quite a good year, so cut me some slack and just let me be moody for once.. haha.

caught two movies back to back again yesterday.. i guess that's not a bad way to fill the day.. watched lady cop and papa crook (starring alan's fav diva, sammi cheng), then went for adam sandler's bedtime stories.. i guess i kinda expected more from bedtime stories, but it just fell flat and way way way lower than my expectations.. probably i should have saved my money for inkheart instead (after all, brandon fraser is better than adam sandler). at least, i'll get to see him transported into the realm of fantasy and magic (something that doesn't happen in reality)[sigh]..

once again, no new year resolutions. after all, why make them when you intend to break them as soon as the clock strikes midnight?? but somehow, as i was standing underneath the fireworks, welcoming the minute, i said a silent prayer.. and without the doubt, it's for everyone around me to be happy at all times. as alan had put it, i have a really cool gang of friends that will always be with me. so, wishing them bliss and happiness is the least i could do for them..

random thought: i'm actually very vain.. haha. in fact, as my granny put it to her friends this morning, i do appreciate being praised from her friends.. haha.
anyway, people have been telling me that i've lost weight again (not just one, but a few), but i do doubt that, and i think i should lose another few kilograms (for assurance). besides, i also need to tone up my body (for reasons that i don't know), improve my flexibility, and probably built some strength?? (again, for no apparent reasons.. so i guess that's not a priority).

ok, enough for now (am heading off to the gym earlier so that i can practise my balance)..

ciao
have a happy new year

ben