last day of 2007

haha..it's the last day of 2007. fret not, as it is not the end of the world yet.. it's just the end of another 'merde' year.. i'm hoping that the year ahead will be better..

so, what are your new year plans, ppl?? any resolutions?? i normally don't make them cos i can't keep them pass the booze...but maybe there's one.. that is i'll try to blog more.. haha. can't wait to see that happening.

what's ahead for me next year...hmm... i'll be working like a horse to complete my thesis, then viva... after that, graduation.. i'll be coming out to work, or maybe further my education...and i may be going for training in balance..and hoping that i will be given classes to teach...(me really desperate for money..haha). others.. i don't really see anything big coming..oh, and hopefully, i'll stay sane for next year...

thanks for the comment from the previous blog.. on the untouchable...i think i'm gonna save that for another post.. but if u really need an analogy, just think of it as concentrated acid...touch it, and it'll burn u to the core...

ok, i'll have to sign off here as i still have loads of things to do here in the lab.
here's to a better year ahead..au revoir
je t'aime

hate this feeling...

christmas have come and gone..and still, what have i done? nothing much! so, how did i spend christmas?? hmm...christmas eve sucks..went for dinner in e-gate, then went to gurney to look at revellers. it was horrible as those rowdy revellers were spraying fake snow here and there.. eventually, we have to seek sanctuary in starbucks. spent about 2 hours in starbucks looking at the ppl around us...nothing interesting, ppl are just as boring...and the ah bengs and ah lians came out in full force..after midnight, we left to head to the torch, to meet up with the jam gang. at least that place is so much more better. the ppl there are more civilised, although i think mich and lav beg to differ....but i think i had better time there...

chirstmas, christmas....also the very moment of heartache.. this week is so hard for me...as i've fallen for an untouchable..it's against all cardinal rules of dating, but i still fell.. at least for the moment. i really hope that it will come to pass, as this feeling is really hard to bear. but why...do i have to fall for an untouchable?? the powers that be is really playing games with my life huh.....actually, i'm hoping that someone can actually give me a few slaps across the face to set me straight...untouchables are untouchable!!!

and the feast of epiphany came to early for me..12 days too early. it happened at the pub, like an hour after christmas. i had finally seen what i have to see.. and realise that certain things have to come to pass. i've been hurting myself for far too long..now, it's time to pass and change.....

christmas gifts....hmm, only one. but it's ok, as it is from my best buddies..it's a detachable hoodie with a low cut...although i wanted another piece, this one is just as good...

one thing that i hope to do before the new year...to cry. i think it's time to let down my defences, retreat to a corner, and really cry for the year. it's the most horrible year that i've been through in 22 years of my life. it didn't start with a bang (in fact, i was in my room, drinking to my sadness), accidents, deaths, pressure, stress, social circle... and finally, the emotional turmoil that i've been through. there's only 2 days left..so, i hope that i can finally set things right..

ok, enough of my ramblings...and yes, i think i may be suffering from holiday depression...
and finally, happy new year to all my readers...
je t'aime

x'mas cheer

it's christmas eve now. i know i haven't been blogging for a long time...so sorry for that. have been really really busy....nearing the point of physical and mental exhaustion. but thankfully, there are always ppl around me cheering me on, and keep me going

so,it's the time of the year now...where we contemplate on what we've done... and plan our next step. it's the time where ppl gather to celebrate the year that passed...and to welcome the coming one. it's also the time to remember the birth of a lord, a shepherd amongst ppl....but for me, it's the time when i hope to take a break...be surrounded by friends and family...and to rejoice..ah..x'mas

now, back to more personal things....finished my x'mas shopping...but the gifts are still lying around unwrapped. the worst part.. i'm now stuck in my lab, and will only be able to go home after 6. gosh... i must really take a break soon...

enough of my thoughts for now....will keep updating soon...ciao
merry x'mas and happy new year
je t'aime

Je T'aime Encore - Celine Dion

i really love this song from celine. i first heard this in one heart, but this version was featured in 1fille 4 types. it just tells of the innocence and purity of love. no holds...if only this is reality.

anyway, it's the weekend again. another week has gone by... and the end of the year is drawing nearer. somehow, i dread this feeling.. i may love the season, together with the carols, the gifts, the tree and the cook...but it's never enough. maybe because there is no one special to spend it with....

my bestie had the craziest idea... to hire a mate to celebrate the season together...so,anyone care to sign up for the part??? haha. ish.....

ok, here goes my christmas wish list (as requested from my bestie)..

1. Celine Dion's Belong EDT

2. The Men's Pen Concealer, no.10

3. a grey V cut hoodie

4. a grey 'Tim Burton's Nightmare Before Christmas' jacket

5. a green Nike yoga mat

6. a pair of eye shades...something like from chanel, or gucci

7. a crux earring

8. another tattoo

9. William Liew's white long sleeve shirt with chinese butterfly buttons in front, and

10. a Swatch.

i don't really know if i can find all of these things in penang....but still, it's no harm wishing.... after all, what's left in the pandora's box is only hope...

ciao, je t'aime

time goes by...

it's the fourth day of december already. the last month of the year. the most depressing month of the year. the very month whereby suicide rates hit ceiling high...and also, it's the end of 2007. and i can summarise 2007 in two words....it sucked!! big time, nonetheless. it was the worse year of my life. especially in the last few months, it's been the thoughest in my life. it's worse than me getting a needle from the doc...or heck, worse than breaking up with my ex. i was nearing mental exhaustion... thank goodness for the friends around me. thanks for being my rock through all these times...

oh ppl, u guys should really go watch 'enchanted'. don't be bothered bout the reviews from the critics. they are hired to do so.. instead, just go watch it with an open heart. it's really really nice. in fact, it made me wanna believe in happily ever after...oh, an amy adams..she's just so sweet. and if u don't fancy her, patrick 'McDreamy' Dempsy and james marsden in tights would really swoon u over...seriously, just go watch it..

ciao
p.s. can't wait for christmas...
and santa...i've been a very 'good' boy this year, so please..read my wishlist carefully. haha