Cleared

Finally, the dust have settled in the horizon. all the cloudiness and dizziness have passed...
yes... i am now an official bodybalance instructor. after nearly 3 months since my training, the practice, the shadow and team teaching session, heartbreak and near give-up situations, i've pulled my act through and settled it once and for all.

Probably this will serve as a motivation for me to continue pursuing my passion. least i forget, bodybalance and all other lesmills programmes are about enjoying ourselves and having fun. being an instuctor shall not limit myself from finding the grace in the programme.

Am really thankful for all the support that i have received, ranging from close buddies, members, head teacher, and even fellow trainees from KL. without all of you, i seriously don't know how will i pull it through. live goes on now...

topic change.. watched red cliff recently. seriously, i didn't know why i passed out the chance to watch it as soon as possible, cos it was damn nice. i am now so waiting for the sequeal. and yea...takeshi kaneshiro is really really hot (and damn good looking to play the military strategies zhuge liang. )
am going for wall.e tonight (free tix..thanks terence!!!)

graduation is just 2 days away.. collected my robes on monday. looked really cool in it (seriously, those purple robes rock), but had absolute no idea on how to put on the golden sash. will be collecting my suit later (tailor-made)..hehe. and also got my hair (front portion) straightened. yes, i've finally changed my looks (and was even commented as a male version of rihanna)... honestly, i don't deny that cos rihanna was my muse...

bought myself a tote bag from fila yesterday. yes, finally got myself a man-bag. after the many seasons since it hit the runway, i've finally caught up with the trend. the best part...it's green (the very colour which is opposing me). somehow or other, i'm starting the embrace the colour of nature..anyway, i am still obsessing about the pair of golden striped shoes from adidas. but i don't think i can get it soon cos i have to allocate the better part of my pay to maintain my car.

speaking of cars, couldn't believe that i have to allocate parts of my pay for 2 months to the car. and now, i even have to spend more, to change the tyres, so that i can drive down to KL at the end of the month.

ok, that's all for now. have to get back to work and complete my task before celebrations.. haha

ciao
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Ben

mamma say, mamma sa, mamma coosa

chant it with me:
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa

haha..don't ask me what it means.. it's just that i find it so cute. all thanks (or no thanks) to rihanna (don't stop the music). can't help when i have that track on repeat, and i am constantly bouncing to the beat. somehow, the body jam breakout got me hooked and i am not sick of dancing to it yet. i just love the jump

mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa

nothing much to blog about (considering the time from the previous post to this post is rather short). just another normal day, with my hands full on the ps2 game, observing bettas breeding, yoga....haih.

somehow or other, i was really really tired today. dunno what got onto me. i nearly fell asleep doing yoga poses (and mind u, they were not easy).

i'd just remember, i didn't put up some of my thoughts, so here goes:
1) me vegan on tuesday.. wondering what to eat?? any ideas on what to eat? or maybe i should just cook some veges by myself
2) i wanna bake some cookies for CNY. am still looking for the perfect recipe.
3) the moon is really beautiful today. when was the last time that u took a look at the moon?? i'd reckon that u guys keep a lookout for her for the next few days cos she's really beautiful
4) mamma say mamma sa, mamma coo sa, mamma say mamma sa, mamma coosa
5) i am determined to take the balance training...but should i also do the flow yoga training. how bout jam? should i take it? am i good? or just as bad as sean?? i wonder
6) thaipusam....
7) i want more clothes.. i just don't have enough. oh, and on clothes, i am considerign altering a pair of pants so that i can wear it for balance. hmm. wonder if it will be successful. maybe i can put my label there too. [Q] designs.

ok, ciao
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ben

G.L.A.M.O.R.O.U.S.

Fergie?? not.. it's ME. i'm glamorous...haha. i wish. don't get me wrong, i am not suffering from an inflated ego overdose.. neither am i high on pot. just that i wanna feel, be and live glamorous. i want to fly first class, pop the bubbling..and do all that i love, and not give a damn.....
however, all these are dreams of a silly fool living in the 21st century...all i can do now is just stick to my monotonous routine, grow up, earn a living, and die peacefully...haha

have been having bouts of weird dreams and the such. one day, it was about me making a turn into mich's place (apparently the turn is called a 'toaster turn), another was about me doing my crocodile pose, with the term fool's hover in my head. this afternoon, i was dreaming of me,mich,lav and chris, walking along the promenade of esplanade, in the rain. next thing i know, my poncho was blown away, my umbrella couldn't shelter me anymore, and i was drenched to the core. feeling wet, i had actually crouched down and cried. i know. i cried and cried and cried like a lunatic. mind u, there was a RHCP song in the background (behind blue eyes), and eventually changed to enya's oronico flow....there. talk about a twisted mind.

retail therapy is better than sex. this is what i think. bought myself 2 tops yesterday....from prangin nonetheless (i always suffer from a severe headache in that particular mall). so, there's the white chinese motif/button top (for first day of CNY), and a black vest/hoodie thingy (for my next clubbing session..although i don't really know when). am so pleased with the purchases....now, i just can't wait to put them on (i've tried them on twice today, especially the black vest)...haha

mum says i should stop losing weight. apparently, i'm starting to look like a drug addict. dad thinks that i may ruin my body with the drastic weight loss (i told him last thursday). ppl tell me i shouldn't lose anymore, and should tone up instead.....
i know, but somehow, i think i really want to shed that last few kilos to end up a perfect 60. yes, i need to tone up..(more serious effort needed), but i think lean muscles are sexy....what to do.....argh

here's two ppl that i proudly say i envy them....
1) Kah Hooi... gosh, he lost so so so much weight, has so much energy...and has abs. he has abs....he has abs. i'm really impressed with him. i do my workout so often, and yet i don't see my abs...but his is there....just there. gosh...
2) Chris...first, he was fat and ugly (thank goodness i didn't know him then). then he's so slim. and now, he's complaining that he's fat...but above all that...he can eat and eat and eat and eat non stop for more than 12 hours..and still remain so thin. all i could hear from him is food, food and more food. it's like he's got this gigantic tapeworm in his tummy or something.... if only i could eat like him and not worry about anything..

thaipusam's this wed. i'm going up the hill on tues nite/wed morn, and hopefully with all my besties (old and new). really look forward to that, as this time, our circle is getting larger and larger..haha. so, wish me luck

lastly, i find myself very cheap when it comes to the 'untouchable'. i've been offering myself to help the untouchable. i know i may be kind, but is my kindness really pure? or is it with a hidden agenda? i don't know. getting to know my untouchable deeper is a good thing...but will the deepness hurt me eventually? only time will tell.. the person is still untouchable, and i am still going nowhere. maybe i need a new person in life, someone that can take me as i am. someone that will appreciate me. i don't know...haih.
this silly little game called love.....

ok, ciao.
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